It’s like I’m on a roller coaster!
I’ve been panicking for a while now. I’m trying to get my feet off the ground with this new company…I’ve personal things that have my head spinning…I’m burning the candle at both ends trying to keep up and feeling like I’m running on empty and yet, for many reasons, I went to sleep last night full of happiness.
Life is good. Really, really good. Instead of feeling behind the eight ball and worrying about needing and wanting more…I just have to relax and enjoy the ride I’m on. Let things unfold the way they should.
I have great fears. Not being able to make it. Being alone. Having these huge expectations and not being able to reach them. Disappointing myself and others around me…
Spiderman has been in hockey tryouts this week and while cut from the High School team and witnessing his disappointment on Monday…then having to pull it together to head into Midget tryouts…watching his determination…I think I’ve learned a few things.
My kids constantly teach me about being positive in the face of defeat. About putting your best self forward at all times. About not letting the disappointments change the path you’re on…change the goals you’ve set for yourself.
They can falter…but they don’t fall.
It’s up to each and every one of us to live our very best lives…and sometimes, I get a little bit lost…I forget and find myself drowning in a sea of self-pity and worry. I get overwhelmed and caught up in the roller-coaster I’m on instead of sitting back at peace for a few minutes…to try to sort things out.
I’ve a goal. Many. I’m on the right track. Every now and then things go a little unexpected…maybe things go a little too fast for me to keep up or jump the rails on a different path but the thing is…I’m still moving forward.
And it’s one helluva ride!
PS…Just before posting this we hit another fork in the road. Through a mix of changes, Spiderman was offered and accepted a position on the High School Hockey Team that he’d been cut from just a few days before. He’s back on track…and once again headed in the right direction…more determined than ever.